Pause..

Sitting here on my desk, I suddenly have this sinking feeling - Lost in a herd of people, whom you don't know, whom you don't even wish to know, just there because you're afraid to be anywhere else.

Time flies by, and you are just left thinking about all the good things that you think will happen. People, places, and things you really cared about just go on with their lives. You expect everyone, everything to wait for you, and miss you. But they don't. Everyone has to go on, the world never stops. You are always under the impression that you still care about everyone, everything that you always cared about. But you get so lost in things, which you don't even know for sure are what you wish for, that you never have the time to think about the very same people, the very same things. And you don't even know if you can say that you care. Then slowly you realize that there's a strange gap, with even the people and things closest to you, and it just keeps widening. You are afraid of trivial things like what will you say and what will you type, that you never even make a call, never drop a mail, and never make a visit. You wish to congratulate everyone on what they have achieved, you wish to share with them the sadness that they've gathered, but you just can't. You think that everyone has moved on, leaving you behind. And you never know if they feel the same.

Life just moves on. And sometimes it goes quite a distance before you realize.

And even then, nothing changes.

~ Ankur.